A lot of people don’t realize this about me, but I did not begin my professional spiritual career as a psychic.  No, instead I started as an astrologer in 1995.

A friend who ran a small metaphysical bookstore in North Carolina (where I was living at the time) said that she needed someone to interpret the astrology charts she was selling through her store.  (This was before the day of inexpensive report writers & free interpretations on the web.)

She knew I had studied astrology for almost a decade at that time, so she thought that I would be perfect for the job.  I felt a little nervous about it, since I had never done readings for money before this point.  Still, I was ready to put some of my learning to use, and had a deep desire to help others grow spiritually.  So I agreed to do it, on one condition….

That I would NOT meet with the clients in person, but instead that I would write them personalized interpretative reports on my computer.  I still wasn’t comfortable being open about my psychic ability, and didn’t want to risk the chance that it might come out in a one-on-one reading.  Luckily, one didn’t have to be considered “psychic” to write a good customized astrology report.

Plus, if any one DID question how I got so much information from a chart, I could always tell them that I just looked it up in books.  And since I rarely even knew any of these people I was writing the reports for, it was unlikely to come up.

About a year went by and I was becoming quite successful as an astrology “report writer”.  I started to feel a little bit more relaxed and confident about sharing my gifts.  I even agreed to meet with a few people for in person readings.  Plus, I wasn’t grimacing as much any more when people would refer to me as a “clairvoyant” or “intuitive” astrologer. 

Just as long as they didn’t use the word “psychic”, I was fine.  I was still afraid that people would discover my true gifts and “accuse” me of being a psychic, but I knew that if they did, I still had the science of astrology “to shield” me—I could always say I learned it all from books, and some how that would make me seem a little less “weird” to the common person.

Have you ever been afraid to be who you really are?  I was.

Circumstances changed in my life, and I moved back to Kansas.  Now I was focusing exclusively on in person sessions, even though it still scared me half to death.  I went to work in a little Pagan/New Age bookstore called “Magical Mystical Connection”. 

There I was surrounded by other readers who used much more “glamorous” and esoteric techniques than me…techniques like card reading, palm reading, aura scanning, and past life regression readings, and so forth.  I thought that for sure I could keep my psychic gifts “incognito” there, since I was surrounded by so many great clairvoyants and mystics.  I hoped that no one would notice that I was doing any thing different other than ordinary astrology, and that the clients who were interested in having a more “psychic” reading done would go to someone else there.

No such luck.

Over the next few months, my reputation as an astrologer—and as a reader—began to grow.  I even quit my “day job” to devote myself full-time to this work.  More and more of my clients begin telling me that I had given them the best astrology reading they had ever had and they couldn’t believe I could get all that information from a chart.

Well, of course, I couldn’t.

I was using my intuitive and psychic abilities all along.  Although the charts did provide me with a lot of information, they were more like a “lens” that I filtered my natural psychic ability through, or like a “launching pad” for jumping off into the clairvoyant realm.  I was beginning to suspect that I no longer needed a chart to do a highly accurate reading.  But I didn’t want to let the astrology charts go because they made an excellent “smokescreen” for disguising my true psychic gifts.  I just didn’t feel ready to be publicly & openly a “psychic”.

I was still very comfortable hiding who I was.  But then tragedy set in.

It all seemed to happen at once.

I was just 22.  My mother died suddenly & unexpectedly.  My family fell apart with anger & grief.  I was in the middle of a divorce and had a young child to raise. My ex quit paying child support and I found myself on welfare as a single mom.  I had to move 5 times in just a 6 month period. 

The boyfriend whom I loved dearly & looked to for emotional support betrayed me with another woman.  I miscarried.  I become sick with a terrible sinus infection.  I got depressed and couldn’t eat or sleep.  I considered giving up the pursuit of my spiritual business to find a “real” job.  I was suicidal.

Many, many terrible & painful things were happening in my life all at once, and I felt *POWERLESS*, completely powerless, to change them.

Have you ever felt as if your life was falling apart all around you?  Have you ever felt like you were literally “cracking” from all the pain?  I have.

But I want you to know that something WONDERFUL also happened during this same period.

The EXTREME emotional & physical stress I was under had the unexpected effect of activating my latent psychic abilities to a level that I had never experienced before.  I guess it was because I had been totally stripped bare, emotionally speaking, and I didn’t have any defense mechanisms left to hide behind.  I could no longer ignore the reality of my gifts, or the urgency of sharing them with the world.

There were many telekinetic experiences back in those days, with my stereo, dishwasher, and other appliances going “haywire” every time I got upset or felt strong emotion.  But more importantly, my clairvoyant & clairaudient abilities began to increase profoundly and significantly.

I began to become ACUTELY aware of the presence of my Spirit Guides and Angels, and I could hear them better than ever before.   As I listened more closely to these wise & loving beings, they told me about the profound changes going on inside of me and how I could keep my true psychic abilities secret no more.

I already suspected that I no longer needed a chart to do a reading.  This suspicion was confirmed when my computer crashed in the middle of a reading at a psychic fair.  There was one person sitting before me and five other people in line who were insistent upon having a reading with ME….and I had no way of running astrology charts until I could get my computer up again!

I knew it was the Universe’s way of “forcing” me to use my true gifts. 

So I just kept going with the reading for the person in front of me, and then when the next person sat down I told them that my computer had crashed so I couldn’t do an astrology reading for them, but that I would be happy to do a real psychic reading instead.  And then I did it.  Just like that. 

Of course, I was terribly nervous because although I was a very well trained astrologer, I had never had any formal training about how to do a psychic reading.  In fact, I hadn’t even read any books about it at that time!  But my spirit guides told me, “Don’t worry….you have all the knowledge you need inside to do this!”  So I did it.  Finally.

And I discovered I was quite good at it.  In fact, those first impromptu psychic readings that I did that weekend were some of the best readings that I had ever done up until that point in time.

When I returned back home, I knew that I could now do professional psychic readings just as well as I could do an astrology reading.  But I still had a little *resistance* left, and I wasn’t about to give up my astrology or start to publicly call myself a “psychic”.

So my Spirit Guides turned up the heat a little bit more…just to show me what I was really capable of, and what I *WOULD* soon be doing--whether I liked it or not :)

My clairvoyant vision became so strong that I couldn’t turn it off.  A person would come into the room and my mind would instantly be filled with images of her life and what was going to be happening for her soon.  The images often would not go away until I had told the person what I saw for her.  So soon I began to share these unsolicited visions, if only to relieve the psychic “pressure” that was building inside of me.

*****I couldn’t hide that I was psychic any longer*******

Soon, more and more people began asking me for guidance & advice.  I couldn’t figure it out because here I was with my life falling apart, and they wanted guidance from me.  But my gifts were becoming so apparent that they couldn’t help but ask.

These were not people that were my normal astrology clients, nor were they people who would even necessarily consult a psychic or an astrologer.  They were just everyday people that I would bump into in the course of my ordinary life, say at the grocery store or the post office.

Many of them, I didn’t even know, and I am sure that they didn’t know that I was a psychic or an astrologer.  But it was as if they were drawn to the spiritual light inside of me, which I noticed had been *increasing* since I began to be more “out” about being psychic….

I began to notice something else too.  I began to notice that my heart was healing.  The more I shared my psychic guidance & insight with others, the better I felt.  The more I opened up about who I really was, the more my life began to come together.  I was finally on the path of my authentic self.

Soon after the beginning of my healing and psychic transformation, I put my astrology aside for several months to focus completely on using my spiritual psychic gifts.  Once I was confident that I would never again hide my true gifts, I let myself pick astrology back up again.  (After all, I *still* deliver one heck of an Intuitive astrology reading and still have many clients who enjoy that service.)  I’m OK with occasionally using astrology as a tool, just as long as I always remember that a chart is not the true source of my gifts.

Today, I continue to focus mainly on helping people with my spiritual psychic readings.  I also offer Intuitive Astrology readings for those who speak the language of astrology. 

A few years ago I realized that there were people who wanted to go a step beyond just getting information and wanted help to begin actively *changing* their situation.  For these people, I began offering Spiritual Mentorship sessions, as well as Prosperity Magic sessions (which are a specialized form of Spiritual Mentorship that focuses on raising your abundance, success, & prosperity).

As you can see from my story, I know what it is like to be confused about who you are or your place in the world.  I know what it is like to feel alone, sad, depressed, and uncertain.  I also know what it is like facing the future and thinking that there isn’t much of a future before you.  I know what it is like to be afraid of your own *greatness*, and to hide from the gifts that are inside of you.

Once I quit hiding who I really was and became publicly “out” as a psychic, things really began to take off for me.  Within a few years, I started getting requests for phone readings from people that lived in other states and countries, and my business expanded exponentially.  Then came the opportunity to be published, then my own TV show, and dozens of opportunities to teach & lecture.

I still serve many people in my home community.  However, now I serve just as many (if not MORE) from other places in the world. Each day I have the privilege of helping people connect with the spiritual realm and get the answers, comfort, and inspiration that they need to lead better lives.  Recently, I’ve started helping even MORE people with my teleseminars, books, inspiring e-mail newsletter.  I am completely fulfilled & uplifted by the work that I do.

I’m so glad that I finally chose to quit pretending to be less than I really was, and to start being who I really am.

I am grateful for my gifts, and I am grateful for my life on this planet.  Most of all, I am grateful for *you*, dear reader, and for the opportunity to serve & uplift you with these words I have written.

If you feel that you would like to be served & inspired by me further, I encourage you to apply for a Spiritual Psychic Reading with me, or any of the other fine services that I offer.

I’m glad that you finally found your way here, and hope that you find what you are looking for.

Many Blessings,

Cynthia Killion, Spiritual Psychic & Guide 

GETTING TO KNOW CYNTHIA BETTER…

A Candid Interview

How long have you been working in the Spiritual field?           

Technically, I have been “working” in the spiritual field since age 15 when I began initiating others into earth-based spirituality & mystery school work.  But I didn’t start getting paid for my services until 1995, when I began my professional career as an astrologer.

When Did You Know You were Psychic?

People often ask me when I knew I was “psychic”.  What I really want to say when I am asked this is, “When did you forget that you are psychic?” 

Of course, I don’t say this, because it might be construed as being rude, and that’s not my intention at all.  But my point is that we all have at least a little psychic ability, although many of us choose to turn it off.  (Just as many people choose to quit singing or dancing or creating when they “grow up”.)

To get back to the original question….when I knew that I was psychic…well, that’s not an easy question to answer.  It’s not like I just woke up one day and said, “Hey!  Here I am—I’m psychic!”.  It was more like the dawning of a gradual awareness, a process of acceptance that I had to go through.  

I remember having my first vision when I was 5 years old.  At age 13, I announced to my best friend that I was psychic, and “proved” it to her by reading her mind correctly three times in a row.  She said to me, “Man, Cindy, you are really freaking me out!” and ran out of the house.  After that, I decided I wouldn’t be psychic again for awhile J.

It wasn’t until 10 years later, at age 23, that I came fully “out” as a psychic, although by this time I had already been working two years as a professional astrologer. I have to admit, that occasionally, I still find the fact that anyone is psychic—let alone me—totally incredible. 

There are days when I think, “A perfect stranger is going to call me in 15 minutes & expect me to tell her about her life….How am I going to do that? And how is that even possible?”  But then inevitably, the phone rings (or the person shows up at my door or I sit down to make a tape or e-mail reading) and the reading begins, and before I know it, I have touched something deep within that person’s soul…..and sure enough, I’m still psychic after all, and no, it wasn’t just an incredible dream, it’s simply the way life is. 

  So I ask you, When did I know I was psychic?  I believe that as long as I am in this physical body, I will still be coming more fully into that knowing.

What Does Your Family Think about the Work that You Do?

            That’s a good question.  I wouldn’t presume to speak for them. Although I can say that generally they are very supportive, or at least tolerant, of the work I do.  It helps that I am a published author now, and actually get paid to do what I do, even occasionally flown out to various places around the world to do what I do. 

Many of my friends & family weren’t so “hot” about the idea of me being a professional psychic/astrologer/spiritual teacher when I first started out.  I used to get asked often, “When are you going to get a real job?”  Now that I have shown them that I can be successful at this, most people in my life are supportive.

 My husband has been with me through most of this process and was supportive of my dreams even when I was still a so-called “nobody”.   Now that I am a “somebody”, many people are interested in knowing & supporting me, but I always remember those precious souls that believed in me before any one else could see my potential.

What are Your Hobbies?

            My hobbies include yoga, hiking, scrapbooking, journaling, cooking, gardening, and reading romance & chick-lit novels.  I also enjoy playing with my 5 pet parrots and my 2 lovely cats.  Occasionally, I dabble in drawing & painting, but more as a form of journaling or self-expression than as a serious pursuit.  I’m an Earth sign (Capricorn—with Virgo rising to boot!) so I’m usually not happy just sitting around doing nothing.  In my spare time, I like to create, and I also like to achieve.  So I do things like write books, train for vigorous hikes, and develop my own gourmet meals.  Or, if I am feeling lazy, then I just "hang" with one of my parrots!

What is your religious background?

            I was raised “lukewarm” Protestant Christian.  Meaning that by the time I was 5 years old or so, my mother had pretty much left the church.  (She was tired of her fundamentalist minister encouraging her to stay with an abusive husband.)  But I still grew up loving to read the Bible & attended church whenever I could with my friends. I must have went to at least two dozen churches growing up!

            At the age of 13, I had an unpleasant experience at a Baptist Church camp, and decided that Christianity was no longer for me.  Shortly after that, I met a man who was a White Witch.  He initiated me into Nature religion, and I went on to study & practice in various earth-based Mystery Schools.

            Later, I found myself doing a short stint in Christian fundamentalism (really!) and after that, a much longer stint in the Course in Miracles and Shamanism.  Eventually, I discovered that I must embrace both of the spiritual traditions of my childhood.

Today,  I continue to study & practice some of the Mystery School religions. I’m also very involved in New Thought Community Church, in Wichita, Kansas.  New Thought is affiliated with the Divine Science denomination (similar to Unity) and would be best described as a kind of mystical Christianity.

Psychic counseling & channeling can be very draining processes.  How do you stay energized & take care of yourself so that you don’t get “burnt out”?

            Lots of self-care.  And yoga.  Seven days a week, 365 days a year, at least once a day, but usually more.  I also walk one to three miles most days.   And I try to eat a lot of fresh, living foods, although my diet certainly isn’t perfect.  (I love vanilla milkshakes!)

            I do my own spiritual release work too.  I work with meditation, visualization, and affirmations on a daily basis.  I also get massage, occasional energy work, and have semi-regular “readings” & sessions with other teachers in my field. 

I do not believe that just because I am a teacher myself it is time to stop learning or healing.  In fact, it’s quite the opposite…because I am a teacher, it is my responsibility to continue to learn & grow and be an example for my clients.